For me it’s anything that encompasses growth for yourself and your life.
It’s the intentional acts and/or reflection you are doing to grow as a person to better yourself, your soul, your community, your family, and your life.
This is what we do to be happy, feel whole, and to help us both uncover our sacred contracts and divine purposes, to live our life in accordance with them to fulfill them!
Which means this can encompass and cover ALOT of things!
From shadow work and reflection to taking care of your physical health, developing your own belief system, seeking mental health help and using the skills they teach you, to goal setting and more!
This topic is a deep seeded passion of mine!
Let me tell you why and why I feel I have so much to share on this topic!
In 2015 I got married to my amazing husband after being together for 4.5 years already, I turned 25 shortly after that and I completely broke.
Quarter life crisis
If anyone doesn’t think this is a thing. I promise you it is.
My depression and anxiety got so bad, I would curl up into a ball while shaking and crying on the floor in front of the door to our house because I had to leave it to go to work or the store for groceries.
It got to the point where, I called into work so many times, had used all my PTO, FMLA, Sick pay all of it that I was fired. All while I was lying to my husband about it.
Telling him I had been going to work and getting sent home early or if he went in after me that I had taken a half day of PTO that morning.
Because, I had no idea what was going on and how do you explain to others I literally can not get my body or mind to leave my house without a severe breakdown.
And being fired from my job only made things worse for me.
I shame spiraled hard and fast!
I had never failed like that before.
I am not going to lie it took much longer than I would have liked to get to the point where I could even begin to think about personal development and how to get there.
It took me an entire year of literally just being depressed and anxious and sitting in front of a tv to numb myself and a lot of weed.
But, than I hit this moment when I was shaking, crying, and about to throw up again from the anxiety of how much longer can I keep feeling like this? How much longer am I going to be able to do this mentally, emotionally and physically?
And if I won’t be able to do this much longer than what am I going to do? How am I going to get out of this space?
This moment sparked my personal development obsession and journey!
Where I spent the next 5 plus years gobbling up everything I could get my hands on, blogs, books, therapies, self help books, podcasts, youtube videos, learning how to bullet journal, taking workshops, retreats and classes, and so much more.
In that 5 plus years I succeeded and failed many times. Went thru CBT, DBT, and a handful of trauma therapies. Dealt with isolation, depression, anxiety and more. Was diagnosed with OCD, Bipolar 2 disorder, PTSD, a binge eating disorder, BPD, DID, Severe anxiety and depression.
I have done the work to no longer meet criteria for some of those and a few I have gotten to a very healthy and manageable level. That doesn’t mean I am cured and I still have days and moments and situations where I struggle.
So, let me help you do that too!
Let me be a support to you!
Let me be a guide to you!
Let me teach you what worked for me and help you sift thru the many ways you can work on your personal development in all areas of your life, like self care, physical health, mental health, and your own personal belief systems and values!