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A month of thought provoking quotations about life

We all need some inspiration, insight, or someone’s else’s perspective to help us navigate and understand the universe and life from time to time. One of my favorite ways to do this is to go to books or the internet and read others words. When I do this it opens up a portal to try and understand their experience that is called life and how they have come to understand the universe we live in. That understanding of someone else’s experience creates a bridge to allow me to shift perspective and learn some new things about myself and the universe along the way as well. This post is a collection of some of my favorite quotations of my own and of others from the past year that really helped me on my path of major transition, growth, and learning this past year. I hope they can help you as much as they helped me!

So be a person they can’t beat. Keep getting back up. Keep fighting. As long as you keep fighting they can never actually win. The fight is coming and as long as we keep getting back up they can never really win.

You create true magic when you learn to let go of control. Let go of controlling the journey and how you will reach your destination. True magic happens when you keep going when that obstacle seems so big in your path there is no way around it. True magic happens in the moments you want to give up and quit. In those moments when you are exhausted and feel like you have tried every which way to keep going to reach your goal. In those moments when you feel stuck and like there is nothing left to do but, turn around and give up. True magic happens when we remember like water we have the ability to be fluid, bend, and be adaptable if we truly let go of controlling the way we must go and just flow.

Never ever quiet that song in your soul. You know the one I am talking about The one that plays in your head when you are alone. The song that no one else but you knows. The one you that makes your whole being vibrate in recognition when it hears it. The one you can’t help but belt out loud. Always let it play out loud for all to see in how you live your life authentically.

I say let it shine and let them cover their eyes. Maybe one day they will be ready to shine just as bright. Until then never let those who are unhealed dull your light.

Stop doing things that make you unhappy. Stop being around people who don’t match your energy. Stop putting yourself in situations that leave you feeling drained. Stop allowing others wants and needs to destroy your peace. You get to choose who you are around, what you around, and the situations you put yourself in. So stop making choices that cost you your peace no matter how it makes others around you feel. Start setting boundaries and watch the peace enter your life.

Be a voice not an echo-Albert Einstein

Now, this year with the energy going on in the collective, the snake slithering its way into our year soon, and the messy rebirth that is happening, it is the time to really grab onto this quotation and take it to live by. To be a voice and not an echo means to embrace your different-ness, to be daring, to take a chance and to take the road less travelled. When you are a voice , it’s when you realize that you are different and thinking differently is the right thing to do. It’s how we evolve and change and keep moving forward in life. Being a voice and not an echo means that you are choosing to use your own voice, your own authentic expression, and your own words when formulating your view of the world around you. Instead of simply being an echo of your environment and what you have been taught.
When you are simply an echo of someone else’s voice, you don’t have personal ownership in what you say, and those beliefs you think are yours? Well they aren’t. They simply are an echo of someone’s else heart.


Being a voice and not just an echo is daring to be brave and question the things around you. It’s being willing to be wholly and authentically you no matter who is around and how hard the world makes it for you. When you choose to embrace that you are your own unique voice and not simply an echo of the generations who have raised you. It gives you the freedom, and the permission to speak up and share what you have to offer the world in your own unique way. Embracing being a voice instead of an echo may be a rougher path to travel but, I promise you when you choose to become the authentic voice that is you and let the world hear it, the liberation felt when those chains fall is like nothing else. I want you to choose now and here, to be willing to question everything you think and then decide…..
Have you been your own voice or an echo this whole time?

This voice in my souls whispered this to me , Reminding me of the power that I wield. Reminding me of the reality I can shape. Reminding me of the rage and fire that burns deep inside that I can call on to protect myself and those who can’t protect themselves in this life. Reminding me to not forget I am a powerful witch, we do not kneel to anyone or any power. We wield it, we stand with it in our hands, and we fight until we have reshaped our entire life. Taking out corruption along the way. I won’t allow myself to become small and shrink into the shadow to not be heard like this administration would like. I will be loud. I will scream. I will get in their faces. I will stand up and fight. I will not let them take my rights and way of life without putting up one hell of a fucking fight.

Even if you think your thoughts on your life and on the people you know are ‘facts’, they really aren’t. They are a series of beliefs you have chosen to live from – your perspective. Your perspective is the way you see something.
It’s the unique way that we interpret and understand our own experiences, thoughts, and emotions, essentially our perspective is acting as a lens through which we view the world around us. Our perspective affects so much of our lives, from our mental health, our interactions with others, our beliefs, and so much more. The way you choose to see things directly affects every choice you make. So your perspective ultimately determines how your life turns out.
Your perspective might feel permanent, but it isn’t. Whether you realize it yet or not, your perspective is actually a choice you have made. And like any choice, it can therefore be changed. So, I challenge you to be willing to challenge your perspective today and see how and where it may need to be reshaped. Doing this could make a big difference on not only your day but, maybe even your entire life.

Some paths aren’t meant to be traveled with others by our side. Some paths are meant to be traveled alone. That doesn’t make them sad or lonely, but full of strength, wisdom, and empowerment. It teaches us resilience and shows us all we can truly accomplish. When we really stop and soak up the silence all around us as we travel our path alone beauty will be found all around.

When you make the choice to heal your wounds and confront the traumas that have been written into the pages of your story. What you are really doing is being reintroduced to pieces of yourself you may have kept hidden in the dark and the pieces of you that were there before you locked them away to keep them safe. This is when you get to relearn who you were before those traumas framed how you view yourself, and the world. Along with the skills they taught you to use to protect yourself and how you respond. Then you get to do the harder work and let go of those things you learned to protect you then and let them go. Reminding yourself that you no longer need those skills and responses today for they no longer serve you and the place you are at now.

Choosing to heal, to really truly go into your soul and mend the things that are broken and bring things to the surface that were hidden is not an easy thing to do. It’s one of the most painful things you will ever go through and it becomes amplified by the fact that it is self inflicted on top of that. The pain you experience when going through the healing process is even going to hurt more then when the wound was inflicted on you in the past. But, that’s okay it’s meant to hurt deeply at first for that is how we truly heal how we move through that pain and allow the medicine of healing to burn and chase away the poison that you had circulating in your energetic veins.

I am not here to live my life IN service to others.
I am not here to be some cog in a machine that is brainwashed in what I think.
I am not here to fall into a line and take orders from anyone. I am here to be me.
I am here to stand in my own power.
I am here to change how we think and how we do things.
I am here to wake others up
I am here to tear shit down, burn it to the ground, and eradicate that line. If doing this means I am not in your heaven that is fine. I would much rather reign in hell where true power and independence can be found in the flames raging all around.

Anger like a fire just is. It isn’t good, it isn’t bad. It just is. what matters is what we do with it and how we direct it. We can either let it burn out of control and consume us. Or we can carefully stoke the flames and choose what is burnt away. You can either build with it and light the way or destroy with it. It is your choice. Right now think carefully about your choice. You can let the heat and flames of the anger you feel now consume you and destroy not only you but, the change you could affect. Or, you can take it and carefully stoke it. Allowing it to still burn at just the right height and heat to be the motivation you need to continue to fight.

For true lasting transformation and change to happen we must be willing to do things we have never done.
We must be willing to truly look deep into the depths of our soul and be honest and accountable with who we are and what we do to try and make our manifestations come true. We must be willing to step into the unknown without fear and trust that if we listen to the changes we need to make lasting growth will come at last. We must be willing to let go of who we have been in the past. Looking into the future with brand new eyes willing to do the things you thought you never could or would to become all you should. With it being Scorpio season right now is the perfect time to do just that. Grab onto this moment of transformation and step into the unknown with willingness to do things completely new to achieve lasting evolution to a brand new you!

Your soul already knows the answer you just have to be quiet enough to hear it and brave enough to listen to it. The next few days as the veil reaches it’s thinnest point I challenge you to truly sit and listen to not only the whispers of the dead but of your very own soul. Reflect on this past year, the triumphs and the hurts and the lessons your soul has learned. Listen to the answers it’s been dying for you grab onto and use to reshape your reality and awaken. Than be the brave being you were meant to be and step through the veil and into this next year with power, purpose, and alchemizing your fear.

While making wishes and sending them out into the multiverse is a step in your manifestation process and essential.
It isn’t the farthest we should go. We can’t simply make a wish with our breath and let them go. We must follow those seeds, see where the land, and cultivate them with our energy, actions, and decisions to make them grow. So today, make the choice to not just simply wish for your dreams to come true but, invest your energy in ways that will make it happen for you soon.

How often do you let your mind and self talk turn into shaming and tearing yourself down? Especially when it comes to your goals, personal development, and growth. How often do you hear yourself try and motivate yourself through comparison to others, belittling yourself or shaming yourself for not doing things you feel you should?
I am here to tell you to take a moment and stop, because shaming yourself into change and becoming who you want to be will never get you the long lasting changes you wish to see. Give yourself grace because I know it’s a loop that’s easy to get stuck in and difficult to get off. Then move forward with motivating yourself to true evolution through boosting your self worth, and love.

Some of us did not come to this realm in this lifetime to be supported and carried by others but, we came here to be the support system for the collective. If you’ve had a challenging life, if you are the black sheep and feel like you never had the proper support and love. That is because YOU are the love and the support system for everyone.
So, make sure to take the time each and every day to do the inner healing work to help move the collective into a place where they truly feel the love and support you were contracted to bring to the Earth.

When was the last time you validated yourself? I am referring to positively recognizing your thoughts, emotions or actions. When was the last time you took a moment to stop the negative chatter in your mind? Stop waiting to hear the positive words, praise or encouragement you’re craving. Tell it to yourself because you’re the only person you have complete control over.

Self-worth is at the core of our very selves—our thoughts, feelings, and behaviors are intimately tied into how we view ourselves as human beings. Which in turn affects our magic, our manifestation, and how we walk around in our communities and go through life. If you don’t feel your self worth is where it should be, take some time today to really sit and reflect on where you have been. Remember every time you fell and got back up again. Remember every scrape, every bruise, every rejection, every broken bone and every hurtful thing someone has ever said. Remember each one those things no matter how hurtful, traumatic or bad they were; you did not stop. You kept going and proved it was all wrong and you wouldn’t let it break you. Each one of those scars, breaks, and every tear wasn’t weakness but, strength and a deposit into your self worth bank. Take a deep breath, focus on that bank of strength you have and remember you are worthy no matter what happens or anyone else says. For every ounce of that strength and self worth in your bank you have earned.

Remember you are growing while also trying to heal. Remember you are grieving while also learning to forgive. Remember you are searching for the future while trying to let go of the past. Remember you are trying to love others while learning to also love yourself. Remember you are accepting yourself for who you are now while also working to become who you were always meant to be. So, give yourself a break and some grace each and every day.

When life, others, or even yourself start to make you feel small, insignificant or like you don’t matter at all. Please stop, take a moment, and be kind to yourself and stand up tall.

Personal growth is central to who I am and how I live my life. I’ve come to learn a lot from the snake when it comes to this process of transformation. They shed their skin every time it no longer fits or serves them. Making the process of transformation very familiar to them. They don’t question it they simply allow it to happen knowing that after that painful process is done, they will be able to slither and breathe like never before. They don’t care what that process looks like to others walking by and they ignore every mumble of disgust and side eye. And if they feel threatened or their boundaries have been crossed they don’t even question to unhinge their jaw and protect themselves while they are healing and raw. Be like the snake as you move through life.

Remember if you are going through shit right now you can use it to allow you to grow and thrive like never before. Nature does it all the time. Just go and ask the mushrooms.

As much as falling apart is difficult, parts of me does truly love it. You get to be so intimate with the raw energy of your soul. It gives you the time to examine each shattered bit of your soul. To filter out the pieces that no longer serve you and lay them to rest with love. To be face to face with the pieces you will carry forward with you in resilience and strength.

Some of the hardest things I have had to heal and work through revolve around the things I didn’t get and receive from others and types of relationships I never got to experience. It’s important that we recognize and work through all of it to be the complete, whole, and balanced creature we were meant to be.

When the fires are all around you and you aren’t sure your skin can take anymore burns; just remember that each step you take and the taller you stand the more power you put into your own hands.

Don’t wait to love yourself until the change is complete, love yourself through the process as well.

Remember,to not care what anyone else thinks of you and their perception of you. You need to do whatever it takes to heal, keep going, and create a healthy and thriving life.

But, remember boundaries aren’t you telling someone else what they can and cannot do. Boundaries are you saying how YOU will respond to the decisions they make and the actions YOU will take. They aren’t rules you enforce on others, they simply are advocating for yourself, your well being, your energy and your time.

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My Open letter to you; 2024 Past Year Introspection and New Year goals for 2025

Happy New Year everyone! I can not believe we are at this point again here! As we welcome the new calendar year saying hello to 2025 and also saying goodbye to 2024 I sit in the duality of the liminal space of transition as I reflect on the past year and look to the new year ahead. Sitting in this liminal space and allowing myself to reflect creates a portal that helps me acknowledge the things I went through, recognize the lessons learned, and gather my thoughts and/or feelings and focus for the year ahead.

My highest heights

. To give the year a proper send-off and reflect on the past 365 days without falling into a pattern of dwelling on the past to the point that you have trouble moving forward, I look at the best parts of the year through a lens of taking note of the highest heights I was able to climb. Actively realizing how far I’ve come and celebrating the wins along the way gives me the perspective and motivation I need when focusing on losses and unwanted things seems all my mind can do that day. Some of my highs from the past year are listed below.

  • The goals I was able to meet.
  • The new people who came in and blessed my life becoming a cherished part of my community I am rebuilding.
  • The kindness showed to be by family in some of my darkest days by taking me in when I didn’t know where I would end up.
  • The magic I was able to weave.
  • The projects I was able to begin, finish, and how my way to express and create changed.
  • The energy I was able to contribute to the collective and the change I was able to make in my clients lives and through my voice and actions demanding change.
  • The amount of love grown between the bond of a mother and a son another year of life can make.
  • The growth a huge mistake someone making can force to take place within a marriage if you choose to forgive and continue your journey together forever with a fresh new clean slate

My deepest depths

I don’t forget about the duality of this liminal time and day. I also look at the worst parts of the year through a lens of taking note of the deepest depths of despair and sorrow I had to face. Reflecting on the lows of the past year means taking time to intentionally think back on the most challenging, difficult, or disappointing moments of the previous year. To acknowledge and embrace the unwanted emotions associated with them. Allowing them identify areas for growth or self improvement moving forward. Some of my lows from the past year are listed below.

  • The confusion and doubt from learning how to enter a technological world I knew absolutely nothing about.
  • The fear and anxiety of being rejected by others never selling a product or booking a client with business I am using to help support my family every single day.
  • The overwhelming feeling of failure when losing my job, getting utilities shut off on me and losing the home I had built for my son and family the past few years.
  • The feeling of grief and loss in who I thought my husband and my marriage was when betrayal entered our life and home.
  • The loneliness and isolation felt when having to finally close the door and cut off contact with all the family I have connected to me through blood.
  • The resentment felt when you take care of everyone else’s world and you don’t see it reciprocated back into your world from those you love.
  • The lack of self worth when facing a relapse from an eating disorder, starting a new business on social media, and healing from betrayal

My Biggest Overall lesson of 2024

“Don’t let the fear of the unknown keep you from taking bold steps toward your goals. The greatest opportunities lie on the other side of fear.”

As you sit to reflect on the past year as it comes to the end and look forward to the next year ahead.
I want you to think of this. Think of every single time you didn’t listen to the fear of failure. Think of every single time you didn’t listen to the anxiety and worry of not knowing if things were going to work out in the end. Think of every single time you kept going even though you had no idea where to go or how you would get there. Didn’t each one of those times get you to a brand new place, build a new thing, or help you meet your goals to achieve your dreams? I’m going to guess the answer is most likely yes.

I know for me the last year was a entire lesson in all of that. I launched this page, started a business, and stepped into a new sacred purpose I had no idea how to shape. The entire time there was fear in the unknown Fear that I wouldn’t have things people would want to hear. Fear that my gifts weren’t something people really wanted me share.
Fear that I didn’t have the power, skill, and time to learn how to create this sacred container especially in a technical way. Fear that I would have to lose things very dear to me in order to make this dream come true and those I love would walk away Fear that the balance between creating content and being present in life couldn’t be had. But, even with that fear there, I kept going. And now just look at where I am at and all the opportunities I have had! This business has done more and has a farther reach than I ever thought I could have!

My First Year as a small business owner

With the turning of a new calendar year I sit here and set my goals and intentions for my personal growth, my family, my personal life, my marriage, my health, and now for my business, this page and sacred container I have created in this past year of my life. This goal I set at the beginning of last year was only supposed to be a small little blogsite for me to write and get my thoughts out in life. Now look at what it’s become and all the skills it has forced me to learn it had never crossed my mind I would need in this lifetime.


It’s allowed my magic to grow and flow in a way I never saw in life and created a new perspective for how to navigate this reality. My eyes were open to how my voice, my energy, and my authenticity could make a real difference in the collective and others lives entering the universal creative force. I was able to get some much more clarity on my identity. I am a hand guiding you on your own unique healing journey. Teaching you to dance in liminal space & alchemize human suffering into healing, power, and magic for the collective. I show you ways to reenchant your life with magic, personal alchemy,& duality.


The goals I have for this magical, mystical, and alchemizing place this next year I know will allow me to meet this epic, resurrecting, and revolutionizing energy of 2025 coming. Below are some of the goals I WILL climb to in 2025 and give you peak behind the curtain of the creative forces that have flowing through me thickly the last month.

  • Hit 1000 facebook and pinterest followers
  • Have 5 people a month join the patreon community
  • Host 2 major workshops spirit has guided me to lead in 2025
  • Be consistent with how I am showing up in this sacred community and container
  • Focus my commitment on supporting all the new offerings in my patreon community
  • Fight injustice in my community by using this space to speak more about political issues and activism the collective should pay attention too and host more events to empower the collective to fight
  • Enter new portals of knowledge to bring back and share with all whose ears are open to hear
  • Listen to those within the community with an open heart to hear what they truly need from to alchemize their suffering
  • Allow my authenticity to shine through even brighter as a guiding light

My top 24 of 2024

Last year I launched this space and birthed my small business this sacred container on 01/07/2024 . After that one of the very firs articles I wrote and posted was my Top 23 of 2023. My reflection of the top lessons I had leaned during 2023. When I look back at that article now and compare it to the ones I have written even in the last week. the growth in my own voice, my writing style, and my confidence is seen all over my site. Which leads me to the first lesson of my top 24 of 2024 . ( Of course , I am going to keep this gong. do you not know me?) If you allow yourself to walk into the unknown you will be in awe at the difference one year can make. In every single area of my life, from the beginning of this year to where I am now has been completely reshaped. Simply because, I had the courage to take that very first step into not knowing the way. Let’s look at the rest of the lesson s I learned in 2024.

  1. If you allow yourself to walk into the unknown you will be in awe at the difference one year can make.
  2. Anger is one of the most powerful emotions to motivate us to change.
  3. true power comes from alchemizing our past, wounds, and suffering into healing.
  4. Progress over Perfection 2024 reminded me that imperfections build character and can be catalysts to change..
  5. I’d rather have lasting change instead of quick change.
  6. Letting go of expectation reduces suffering.
  7. I would much rather Reign in hell then serve in heaven.
  8. I can never stop going I hold someone’s childhood in my hands.
  9. The Peace you get from cutting out toxicity and drama from other people is resounding.
  10. Your choice to forgive and move on must be for you and no one else.
  11. Shame is something others can make you feel while guilt is something you make yourself feel.
  12. In life we are either learning and growing or decaying.
  13. When you choose to play in the matrix you have to know the rules to play.
  14. You must know who you are to attract the abundance and things you need from the multiverse.
  15. Embody your authenticity with integrity.
  16. Lessons will continue to present themselves until you respond in a different and new way.
  17. You can’t create a new life without being willing to shift perspective and do things in a new way.
  18. The wisdom whispered in stillness and silence is the most profound.
  19. With betrayal comes a deep sense of grief for the person and life you thought you knew.
  20. Look for your glimmer in every single day
  21. You can only enlighten the minds of those whose ears are open to hear it
  22. Change is a natural part of life, and even destructive forces can lead to new beginnings.
  23. Resentment is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die.
  24. Betrayal can be a wake-up call to establish clear guidelines for how you expect to be treated.

Final Thoughts

As I look at the heights and the pits of the past year I can’t help but, be reminded of the duality of life. The constant ebb and flow of energy. The endless turning of the wheel. The one thing we can guarantee in our lives forever; is change. The need for us embracing and balancing the darkness and the light. I see how not only the highs bring wanted things into my life but, pits and falls do as well.

In the form of healing generational wounds and trauma. Pushing me to grow, evolve, and becoming the next version of myself. Shedding and letting go of stories and wounds that no longer serve me and weigh me down. While welcoming in new ways of thinking, being, and perspectives of others and the world. As you sit in both the hope of the future looking at the highs, and setting new goals. Don’t forget to also look at those times you sank into the depths of despair, darkness, and sorrow and lessons they had shining bright inside.

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A Letter looking up From Rock Bottom

As I felt the life shattering affect of the impact when you hit rock bottom recently; I was reminded of many things. These things I’d Like to write in this letter for myself to remember when I most likely will hit the bottom again and for you. To let you know, you are not alone, to help you shift perspective for survival, and to introduce you to what I believe is your soul.

As I write this, I am still sitting at the bottom of the mountain, after being violently shoved down it. As I tumbled down the slope hitting boulders, ledges, and shrubbery along the way adding more damage with each shocking impact. I sank deeper and deeper into the feelings of despair, hopelessness, and defeat.

When my body, heart, and spirit felt like it quite literally couldn’t take anymore I landed at the bottom of the mountain as a shattered mess, barely breathing, with what I thought was no will left to survive.

When my breathing was ragged, my body was bruised, bones were broken, and my spirit was shattered laying in the dirt with a river of tears streaming by I came face to face with the best part of myself.

The part of myself that is the foundation of who I am. The core of who I am. The tiny bit of myself that has nothing left but the will to fight and survive. The part of myself that can’t be broken down any further. No matter the amount of pressure applied. The part of myself that will drag myself back up no matter how much I am hurt. The part of myself that will adapt to any environment I’m thrown in.

And this tiny bit of myself that I get to be face to face with as I lay broken down, shattered, barely breathing at the bottom of the mountain; I believe may just really be my soul.

Sitting there face to face with my soul at the bottom of the mountain battered, bruised, and broken gave me the companion and the ability to go within and shift my perspective.

A shifting perspective when I landed and got over the shock of the impact was one of the only ways that allowed me to survive and attempt to climb that mountain again.

My soul guiding me to shift my perspective allowed me to truly see my circumstances clearly for what they were.
While I couldn’t change my circumstances. I was hurt, barely breathing, short on hope at the bottom of a mountain, nothing was going to change that anytime soon. But….

I could change my view on them.
I could change how I felt about them.
I could change how I was going to let them affect me.
I could change the lesson they would teach me.
I could change my entire perspective on the path I was going to climb once I was healed and ready to try again
I could take it in and remember that when life seems like its just completely falling apart.

When it feels like you won’t be able to take in one more painful, ragged breath. This mountain you fell down, that shove you were given, every bruise and broken bone you collected as you fell, is just life and the multiverse breaking you to rebuild you into what you were always meant to be.

It’s life showing you another path you should have taken up the mountain instead.

When I shifted my perspective it allowed me to see the potential for growth instead of only the damage I had taken on the fall down.

It gave me the ability to grab the hand of my soul, go deep within and allow the mirror of my shadow to replay the path I had previously attempted and where the fall down the mountain had begun.

Once, my perspective was able to shift the tiny ember of fight, fire, and passion that I didn’t realize had still survived the fall was lit by the warmth of my soul and used to start to rebuild the foundation of who I will be once I completely heal.

That tiny ember of fire being held and cared for by my soul would be the thing that allowed me to survive. And survival was all I could focus on as I looked up laying at the bottom of the mountain. The next breath, the next minute, the next hour, and the next day was what my body, heart, and soul could promise to live for.

I reminded myself that when you are broken, and struggling to breath through the pain it’s okay if survival is all you can focus on. It’s okay if the pain is all you can feel and see. Pain means you are still alive.

It’s okay if survival mode is where you need to be right now, to make sure you keep taking your next breath. Survival mode exists for these times and moments to push us to keep going after we take so much damage we aren’t sure how we will continue on.

Use this time laying at the bottom of the mountain bruised and broken with your soul to shift your perspective, look for a different path you can take on the next climb up, and to allow yourself to heal itself in a whole new way.